you live your life, work your job, live in your homes and its all YOUR life and its so important to you.

you see it on the news, hear it on the radio, and it all makes things seam so cruel when you see things like this:

http://my.break.com/media/view.aspx?ContentID=69658

But then you get bored, something paeks your intrist, and you find this:

http://sizeofoutworld.ytmnd.com/

Makes you feel small, odd, insignificant, somehow naked.

Then this shows up:

http://atinyglimpse.ytmnd.com/

All of a sudden, really, do things like this really matter?

http://www.break.com/index/army_live_iraq_footage.html

Think about it, how big you are against all this.

So i decided to re-arange my room tonight, everything is alittle more... tighter packed now, but i like it. Well i have my puter in my room now, so the living room becomes less of my common place, maybe now chriss will venture out into it a bit more often.

Anyways, so im re-wiring my puter to fit better, and i look at my mouse/keyboard/remote combo and its a logitech set, so im thinking, "cool, good stuff" then i wonder, "well who made my joystick" and guess who? yup, logitech. Okay, so alittle ironic. Then im putting around, getting everything set up, and i notice a little familiar emblem on the back of my main woofer... legitech? yup... i never noticed the PAIR of symbols on the satelites, just noticed the woofer till now.

So that makes everything but my monitors, tower and second set of speakers the only non-logitech stuff. I swear though, if they made any more peripherals i use, id accidently have bought them by now...

so the tally goes like this;

Logitech keyboard

Logitech mouse

Logitech mouse

Logitech satelites and woofer

Logitech Joystick

Gateway tower

Samsung primary monitor

Compaq secondary monitor

Boston secondary woofer and sats

Its almost scary if you think about it.. maybe im paying Mr. Samsung's kids through colledge... eh, either that or im buying his morning coffes, who knows...

Just thought id mention

Yup, exactly three weeks since last update, woot me for being lazy. Who knows if ill actually post this, sorta been drinking tonight :P thats right everyone's favorite time to talk to me, when that little voice in the back of my head that says, "hey, STFU" just shuts up for a bit.

Ive been texting nearly everyone anymore, i swear ive racked up 457697634 texted in the last month, thank god for the man (or woman, i cant be TOO discrimatory), that invented texting. The benifits of a conversaion, without the bane's of a call, all the niceties of replying at will without the curse of sounding sincere...

Fish sticks are ready! i swear kit is saying im insane anymore, the sad thing is i have a tendancy to agree with him anymore. My life is a mess, but nothing more than ussual, nothing worth mentioning, nothing that wont change in the next week.

I feel my life is like a tidepool anymore everyithing building up and torn down with the passing of hours and all i can do is sit and take it. Only a few things staying solid anymore mostly that my feet are still attatched, but who knows, that might change tomorrow. I hope it doesnt i like my feet :(

i think allot of times i use this to ramble, sit and scribble things off topic until i feel ive gotten something out even though ive never even scratched the surface of my problems. Women can be so confusing sometimes, but others i begin to think im even harder to figure out, the banes being bi maybe? who knows...

oh! after like a month of looking for a rifle (for sport purpose, im tired of stripping and cleaning air pistols, i want to take a REAL rifle to a range and feel the kick as i send a slug down-range, the well oiled sound as the slide runs a new death device into the chamber) i end up finding my supervisor will be comming into possesion of a .22 (AKA varmit rifle, small game, rabbits, coyotes, thats about it) and he cant stand something that low caliber, so he will be giving it to me, should he get it in the first place.

eh, there is something to go off of; ive allways liked guns, not just because of the 'bang bang your dead' aspect, but the down and out, "this is power, you hold this, you hold the capability to TAKE lives" suddenly with those 3 pounds of steel and wood you become a sort of god. Life an death are in your hands as you are given the ability to take life at the pull of a simple lever. Not only that, but rifles take it up a notch from there, you are given that choice, but it becomes an art. Your entire body synchs with that rifle for that one perfect shot, to the point where when you shoot, you are applying pressure so slow, you dont even know when it goes off, your body is at such ease that when the bullet finaly leaves that barrel, its a culmination of your entire spirit that flies with you.

i dunno, maybe im drunk, maybe im rambling, but im looking foreward to it either way.

*sigh* well enough rambling for now, maybe ill say something meaningfull next post, but dont hold your hopes up, with how often i post, your hopes might get a bit heavy :P

Sorry i havent been around my computer lately, havent even been checking journals, my life has been flying around allot lately. Hell ive hardly been home anymore, and its showing in miles on my car and tanks in her too...

Well anyways, where to start. I have been doing allright, since my last update ive left the single world, now officialy together with Brooke, a freind ive pretty much had and eye on for 3 years now. Things have been good for us, the details i wont go into for differant reasons, mostly certain people dont need to know.

Anyways, i now have a cat, a little black kitten only 2 months old now, still small enough to hold in a single hand. Speaking of which he is sleeping in my lap right now, thus binding me to the computer for a bit, thank him for this post :P i finaly fessed up and suffered a new bed, went from a twin to a full, i wanted to go queen even, but i couldnt justify the sheer size for my room.

Ian is back from Pulman, and have been trying to hang out with him as i can, brothers till the end i guess. He has been away for so friggin long there seames so much he NEEDS to see and do, sometimes i forget he is nearer than he could be. Heh, i prolly overwhelm him a bit. *ahem* anyways...

im off work early today, my press broke, and not like a broken fan this time, but full out blew up one of the gears, so there is no hope of even hobbling an order out right now. Duely, me and travis where given the option to head home, and frankly, my apartment needs work... again... that kind of thing happens when you use my place as a platform for sleep for a week or two.

Brooke is spending the day with brit today, then tomorrow at dead in the moning she takes off for a band trip to disneyland, she wont be back till tuesday. Its moments like that i realise there have only been 3 days i havent seen her since the day we started dating (4th of april for those who want to know) Peh, i suffered near a year 60 miles from a relationship, 4 days will be fine.

Lets see, there is only one more thing i can think to mention, but i dont htink i want that sitting on my journal becausei dontk now how much of a thing it is yet. either way i hope to blog more often.

See you all around

i think im dying to the world of actually posting, my life has beecome quite the revolving door of issues, and i feel like all i do is sit and sulk about them when i blog...

its nothing personal to any of you, or any of you who check. Ive been leaving longer comments then i have posts... Eh, maybe i like other people's lives just thatmuch better than my own...